Sunday, October 31, 2010

One's real life is often the life that one does not lead

"The triangle thickens."-Detective Fin Tutuola (aka Ice T) from Law & Order: SVU
The FUNNIEST line ever to be said on that show, no question about it.
We're still confused of how that line came about.

I have a lot of topics to get to, I just haven't
had the time. I'm falling back on Post Secret though.

Wow. That's all I have to really say about this. Just wow. That's pretty...intense.

Now, I LOVE Grey's oh so very much. It has theeeeee greatest lines and Meredith Grey has the most amazing and deep and intense monologues. It is awesome, but don't watch it!! It is a black hole, a vortex, that sucks you in and you will have to watch it for the rest of it's series, which I hope is a long time, I'm ADDICCCTTEEEDDDD :)

Sometimes....people just go through the motions of life, the motions of living. Doing what we're supposed to, acting how we're supposed to. Have you ever been surrounded by friends and laughing and smiling, but really on the inside you couldn't care less of what is happening around you? Sometimes we just go on autopilot and then we wonder why we're bored, and unhappy. We have to work at life, work at work, work at fun. Live life. Don't just run through your days. I do that a lot, especially during the week. I get up, go to class, eat dinner, watch my shows, and sleep. And then I wonder why I feel alone or restless inside. We need to go out live, do things to make yourself genuinely happy. Go out of your way to help someone else. Helping others is the best way to make yourself happy. Don't just exist and float through, be somebody for yourself, be somebody to someone else. Cliche time: live life to the fullest.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

The greatest thing you’ll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return.

I'm so sorry.

It's been over a week.

And I haven't made a new post.

I've been super busy with school and life. Midterms, church callings and talking in church (which went really well even though I hate public speaking) and other general busyness; and sadly because this writing on here doesn't have a deadline like everything else I've been writing recently it had to be out on the back burner. But I'm back! Have no fear.

It's Sunday, aka Post Secret Day

So, while this is really depressing, clearly a lack of communication by both parties.

However, I mainly wanted to comment on the dog part. Dogs are truly "man's best friend." They never judge you, they never hurt you, they are just there for you. There for you to hold, there for you to tell your deepest secrets too (they are the best secret keepers for obvious reasons). They are there for you no matter what you've done, they are there for you to cry on, they are there to always love you. They don't care who you are, they just care about you. I love my dogs so much. At times they have been the only company I've had and at times they've been the only company I've wanted. If you follow my blog, you'll know one of my dogs died this past summer. I still miss her so much, and I still love her. A dog's understanding sometimes seems a little uncanny, I swear, I think they know more than we give them credit. My dogs are/were my best friends. And no one or no other dogs can replace the part of my heart that is theirs. The bond between a person and their dog, the amount of undying trust and love is one of the strongest there is.

"I love you, my friend, as much as I can love anyone. Believe."

I love my friends, I love my family members. Don't ever doubt that, always believe that I care and love you.

I always will.

Everyone thinks they want out.

They out of high school so they can do whatever they want-no more school, no more responsibility.

They out of their family because their family doesn't understand them.

They want out of their relationship because it's getting to serious and they don't want to get hurt.

They want out their small town-to make it in some city somewhere else, because it's to small here, everyone knows everyone and there is nothing to do.

That's what they want....but no one ever tells them that's not what they need, and that after they get out they realize it was what they wanted after all.

They realize high school wasn't that hard, college or the work field has more responsibility and more work and of doing what you don't want to.

They realize their family is the only thing that will forever be there for you and will love you always.

They realize that that relationship they thought they didn't want anymore hurts more to be out of than in; they realize it's worth the risk of being hurt.

They realize that small town, where everyone know everyone is their home and the big city with flashy lights doesn't replace the love of their home.

No one tells you that when you want out, and sometimes once your can't get back in.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Guess what? You're not cool.

I HATE skinny Jeans.

Okay, mostly I hate super skinny jeans on guys. Like seriously? It's the worst. They're too tight and then they sag them down (because we all know they couldn't POSSIBLY be comfortable) and then we all get to see their underwear.

All around, it's gross. Just wear jeans that FIT you. Guy+Skinny Jeans=weird, pansy, femmy. Equals I'm not a fan. You look like an idiot. There is a difference between well fitted, straight jeans and the skinny jeans to which I am referring. One is good, the latter is not. It puts me off and most guys in skinny guessed it, I don't like them. In fact, 9 times out of 10 I can not stand them. It's just gross, blahh, I can't even stand it.

You know what usually goes along with those skinny jeans? Toms; tight, weird T-shirts; bleached or dyed black classic "emo" hair (you know what I'm trying to describe); a beanie hat (in. the. summer.); a cardigan sweater that's too small; and over-sized, purposefully dorky, coke bottle glasses; and an attitude and personality equalling that of "too cool for school," music snob, who thinks they are just so above everyone else. The reason their spindly little legs can almost fit into those jeans? They haven't done a difficult thing in their life.

I don't like most skinny jeans on a lot of girls either. Again, I'm not talking about straight jeans, or tailored, tighter jeans. I'm talking too tight, too small, that they've shimmied and squeezed their way into only by putting them on before they ate that morning and sucking in their gut like no other. Just admit it yourself (you dont' have to share with the rest of the world) that you're not a size 4 or 6, you're an is OKAY. I swear.

And don't say, ever. That you're skinny jeans are comfortable. I know, you know, we all know. They are not.

Also, why did we ever think popped collars were cool?
When your shorts are shorter than the pockets they have, we have a problem.
Dress pants require proper socks that match and are not ankle socks.
Man-pris. Terrible.
Most anything seen on project runway, don't try to mimic it.

Wear what you want, dress up, dress down. Follow a (normal) style, have your own. Just make sure you don't look like an idiot.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Sunday Will Come

"I am asking that we stop seeking out

the storms and enjoy more fully the

sunlight" -Gordon B. Hinckley

I have SO many thoughts and feelings jumping all over the place right now that I can barely function. Now I wish I actually wasn't all caught up on watching my shows online because that's one of the only times I can forget about everything else in my life. I was thinking of going running, most people say it clears their minds but when I run is when I do my thinking, so that'd be no bueno right now because I just want a break. I might still do it though. But mostly I'm looking forward to watching Criminal Minds or Cougar Town tonight. Why do all my shows come on at the SAME TIME!? I want to write about a million different things but can't stay on a train of thought long enough to keep to one topic and if I don't, it will be the longest blog post ever conceived by man. I have to wait a while to think through a lot of things to the end before I can do that.

But, I did realize I did have one Post Secret from last week that I liked.
It wasn't the best week in my opinion. I just liked this one, because, lets be real, that would basically be the best gift ever. And this picture has one of my favorite secrets ever->

All I can say right now, is that I have SUCH great friends. And I have found so many great friends and examples to me here at BYU. I used to not want to come to BYU, but I can't imagine not being here. I don't know where I would be (literally and figuratively) if I wasn't here. I'm learning more and more everyday the huge importance of family, friends that build you up, and having a strong and firm anything for you life. For me, it is my religion. And I'm so grateful for what I know and believe and the support I get from it in times when I so desperately need it.

"Each of us will have our own Fridays—those days when the universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces. We all will experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again. We will all have our Fridays. But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death—Sunday will come. In the darkness of our sorrow, Sunday will come. No matter our desperation, no matter our grief, Sunday will come. In this life or the next, Sunday will come." - Joseph B. Wirthlin

"God the Father watches over us, fills our hearts with breathtaking joy, brightens our darkest hours with blessed peace, distills upon our minds precious truths, shepherds us through times of distress, rejoices when we rejoice, and answers our righteous petitions." -Dieter F. Uchtdorf

"The Lord compensates the faithful for every loss. That which is taken away from those who love the Lord will be added unto them in His own way. While it may not come at the time we desire, the faithful will know that every tear today will eventually be returned a hundredfold with tears of rejoicing and gratitude."-Joseph B. Wirthlin

"We see ourselves in terms of yesterday and today. Our Heavenly Father sees us in terms of forever. Although we might settle for less, Heavenly Father won’t, for He sees us as the glorious beings we are capable of becoming." - Joseph B. Wirthlin

I've always really liked quotes from Uchtdorf, I can pay the best attention when he is talking, but I really wish I had made myself pay closer attention to Wirthlin when he talked. His "Sunday will come" quote has made it into my top 5 favorite quotes of all time.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

I didn’t think it would count. I was just a little bi-curious.

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. I know, I said I would never ever see it. By far the most stupid and ridiculous movie I have ever seen in my entire existence. I mean, I'm pretty sure that's what the director was going for. Stupid, corny, and lame. I say this and one would think I didn't like the movie. Now, I will never see it again willingly, but that doesn't mean I wasn't laughing my head off for most of the movie. It was funny and stupid, which was the point of the movie. I liked most of the characters, they were just ridiculous and funny. Michael Cera (my favorite role of his still and forever will remain George Michael from Arrested Development) is Scott Pilgrim, with sister Stacy played by Anna Kindrick-I'm a fan, and her character is funny. Also, Scott's gay roommate Wallace (Kieran Culkin) is super funny. Just really pay attention to all the characters lines, they're all great. And Mary Elizabeth Winstead, as love interest Romana Flowers. She was weird, and I freaking loved her. So, the story goes boy meets girl, girl has 7 evil exes of whom boy must defeat so they can be together...but don't forget about his girlfriend too. I'm pretty sure I got stupider watching it, but if you just accept that's dumb and move past it, you can enjoy the hilariousness. It's nonsense, it's funny. It's comic book meets video game and slapped on the silver screen. That's all there is too it. Oh-and there are some most excellent quotes. So, point of story. Will I buy the DVD? Most likely not. Am I glad I saw it? Yes. Was it one of the funniest things ever? It's up there. Should you go see it? Probably.

"Guess who's drunk!" "I guess Wallace." "You guess right!"

"He punched the highlights out of her hair! "

"We are Sex Bob-Omb and we are here to make you think about death and get sad and stuff."

"You just headbutted my boyfriend so hard he burst."

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones that need the advice


The Family: A Proclamation to the World,4945,161-1-11-1,00.html

It's only the first week of October and I am SO looking forward to Thanksgiving. It'll be the first (and last time any of us kids come home from college for Thanksgiving). And it took me and my older sister like a month and a half of convincing my parents, and I have to pay for half my plane ticket. Why must BYU be so far away from my family? Tickets cost like $500...well cheap ones. So, that's another blow to my bank account. But, it's worth it!! I'm so excited to see my family. After we moved to VA this summer I basically hung out with them all day every day. My parents, my siblings, my cousins and Aunts and Uncles. I got on a lot better terms with some of my family members, and I got know some a lot better. I really realized a lot more the importance of family and how much I truly love all of them even if we don't always get along or see eye-to-eye. Family will always be there, no matter what, they will always be your family. They will always be there for you, so we all need to work a little (or a lot) better at creating good, strong and close bonds with our family. "It is within our families that we learn unconditional love, which can come to us and draw us very close to God's love. It is within families that values are taught and character is built. Father and mother are callings from which we will never be released, and there is no more important stewardship than the responsibility we have for God's spirit children who come into our families" -M. Russel Ballard. And exciting stuff s happening this Thanksgiving for my family! So, I have to be there. Plus, the newest Harry Potter movie comes out in November and I am waiting to see it back in Virginia. Please hurry up October!!

Back in NY, where I used to live & graduated from high school, it was homecoming this past weekend and senior nights are this week for a lot of the fall sports (aka my soccer team) and I've been missing NY-high school, bowling, soccer, frisbee, lacrosse, friends. And I realized when my roommates and I were talking about our high schools with each other the other day that I will probably never lay eyes on the high school I graduated from (or any of the high schools I went to for that matter), sad day. It kind of bummed me out. I really want to make a trip up to NY this summer, but it's really far away and I'll have a job, and I've been gone for so long now. Speaking of homecoming, don't worry high school bros, it never ends. It's homecoming week here at BYU. And if you take all the HC activities and dances you have in high school, multiply it by 10, you got how much goes on at a college.

Which, lets be real, nothing ever really ends. You'll always be learning new things, you'll always be meeting people and friends, you'll always be happy about something, you'll always be annoyed/angry at something, there will always be something causing you stress and pain (there's always something), you'll always be gaining and you'll always be losing. There will always be politics, there will always be cliques, there will always be fights, goodbyes and there will always be reconciliations and great memories being made. And don't worry, there will forever and always be d.r.a.m.a.

hmm, I don't really know what this was all about-just some thoughts.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

I Can Finally Breathe, Suddenly Alive

Sometimes I still think like, "What, I'm in college?"
And "I have an apartment & I live with my friends
and my family lives across the country." I have
married friends and friends with kids. I plan
vacations that I used to only go on with my family
I'm living like a real adult life.
What is this?

Anyway, Post Secret this week, I have some favs but not a lot to really say about them.


Just 2 things. Don't cheat on people, seriously? What is your problem? Glad I've never had to deal with that. Secondly, if you're cheating and I know, I will tell them. That's just crap.

Can someone please take the time to figure this out? I want to know what it sayssss.

And it's cool.

-Also, I've had a headache for 4 days now. Suckfest.
-I feel like October is going to be the longest month ever (but that's what I said about September too and look where it's gone).
-This weekend is General Conference weekend, and it's good and I've seen a lot of my family because of it, excellent.
-I don't want to go to class; but what else is new?
-I really don't want to be sick anymore.
-I'm buying a megaphone.

My favorite songs right now are
Breathe, Naive Orleans, Inevitable~Anberlin
Just the Way You Are~Bruno Mars
Ridin' Solo~Jason Derulo
Love the Way You Lie ~Eminem & Rhianna
If I Die Young~The Band Perry

I just love to sing in my car. It's just....simple and good.